31.3.15

Confessions pt 9.

Bless me father for I have sinned, it's been too long since my last confession, and since I last wrote something on this blog. #bloggeroftheyear

• My anxiety has been really bad lately, I've been having these small panic attacks several times a day most days for the past month or so. Not to a point of completely breaking down in the ugliest ugly-cry known to man, but more of a discomfort that gives me a belly-ache and a head-ache from over thinking everything. It's like this rock in your gut that never goes away, so you're lugging around this big clump of bottled-in emotions that you have no way of getting out. I get so self-conscious and for that reason I need a pause from all things blog once in a while. My anxiety is by no means better, but I feel like I have control of the situation at this point. 

• I deleted the 15Things_ instagram account. I was putting so much pressure on myself feeling like I needed to post daily lists, and that I needed to make everything perfect. It was exhausting, and I wasn't enjoying it anymore. I strive for perfection doing projects like that, and, shocker, I'm not perfect. I was also getting a solid amount of followers, which terrified me. so there's that.

•  Even if I feel like I absolutely needed a pause from all things blog, I've missed it and I can't wait to put all the creative mess currently inside my head to words, and to share them with someone.